Writing is a beautiful, powerful and amazing thing. It gives us so much and has the power to move people. Lately, I have been in a weird place. Any of my writers out there understand what it is like to get lost in your thoughts, feelings, and the depth of life. We don't see the world as others do because often we want to reinvent and create worlds that we love.
As a writer were given this beautiful gift that should be shared with the world because the depth of our emotions and slight insanity that goes on within us, has the power to move and inspire others. I wanted to write because I would read a book or watch a movie and it would stay with me. They have the power to hit me in the feels that sometimes everyday life simply can not. I know the depth within myself craves so much of these feels. When I can be moved, touched or inspired by a book or movie then I fall in love with that writer because for me they have done their job well.
I loved being moved to tears, or feeling inspiration, or a gut-wrenching sadness or the desire to fall in love. Writing gives you the power to feel and that is what we all want, is to feel something. Whether it be in love, joy, moved, sad. We want to feel something.
I am going to be completely honest with all of you right now. This week I have been sending out a lot of query letters to agents. I've also been thinking about my life in general and why it feels as though something is missing. I think I discovered this morning. My passion is sparked by the depths of my soul especially when it comes to love. Instead of one of my series I threw on a romance one I enjoy tremendously. I realized that since the split with my ex, I have lived in fear. Fear is what I have known for years. Fear of getting hurt again, fear of never finding love, fear of losing what I love, fear of not being good enough, fear of success. I think the missing piece for me is that I understand fear and sadness but I am ready to feel something new. I'm ready to feel love again.